Thinning Thoughts

I’ve been itching to change this website. A while ago, I purchased a domain name, but found out from Groovybabe that it’s a common or otherwise used name. So, I put it on the back burner and didn’t do anything with it. Well, I’ve been wanting to get away from Thinning Thoughts and have a name that’s more representative of ME and not the program I happen to be trying at the time. So……..

I’m going to let this site go. Now I’ll be posting at my new one called Shrinking Mom. I’ve got the blog up, but I’m not finished adding all the schtuff that makes this place what it is. I will be working on that later tonight and tomorrow.

So, feel free to come on over. I plan to update more often — even when I suck at weight loss. I need a place to just chat and I guess it’s as good as any place.

Hope to see you there!

Yes, I went to the meeting. I took my 7-year-old daughter with me and it really helped having her sitting quietly beside me. She’s such a doll. This client is really nice and very motivated to have a great website, so it went very well. I’m still feeling self-conscious, but I’m so glad I didn’t pass up on this opportunity just because of my hang-ups. Whew!

I need to head back to bed. It’s 4:38 am and I have to be up at 6:00 am to get my shower and then get the kids ready for school. I’ve been sick since the weekend and I’m finally feeling a little better but I still have some of the sleeplessness that happens to me when I’m sick.

I’ll come back and post some more later. My mom’s dog is very sick and almost died over the weekend. It has really made me think about what I’m doing to my body as I eat with abandon. I promise it’ll all make sense when I post. Be back later!

First, thanks to those of you who commented on my previous post. I honestly didn’t think anyone was still reading or that anyone would still want to comment since I’ve all but dropped off the face of the blog-earth. So, really, thank you for still caring. Your words made me cry (I get emotional like that). (((Hugs))) to each of you.

Now, for the “I can’t do it” part. I am so sad right now. I’m sorry for another negative post, but I need to talk about this so that I don’t go into the kitchen to soothe my fears. As most of my regular readers know, I’m a freelance web designer. Most of the time, it works out really great for me because I get to work with interesting people from all over the country. And the bonus is that I never have to meet face-to-face with any of them. I am super shy (painfully so) and very insecure about my appearance. Well, once in a while, I get someone from the local area who wants a website and who wants to meet with me to discuss it. OMG. Someone requested a quote yesterday and just now he emailed back saying he wants to move forward. He wants to meet with me and discuss the specifics and give me the 50% deposit.

You guys, if I turn this down, I’ll be giving up $800. $800! But I really can’t stand the thought of meeting him face-to-face! I’ve been a stay-at-home mom for 7 years and my wardrobe is pathetic. I have nothing to wear and I am so fat! If I had buckled down a month ago, I could have lost 10-15 pounds and felt better about myself. But, nooooooo! I’m still messing around.

I need that money like you can’t believe, but I just can’t do it….

I get all gung-ho about starting in January, I never really make it a whole day, and then I just give up. And here I sit on February 17th and I only half-care that it’s happened again. The half of me that cares is sad about still being so fat. That half of me wishes like crazy that I could just get my act together ONCE and start making changes today. That half of me seems so far away, though, because the half of me that doesn’t care is secretly glad. Sounds crazy, doesn’t it? This half of me is glad I still get to enjoy all my favorite foods. This half of me is glad that when I have a stressful day I know I have my best friend waiting for me. That sounds so sick.

What do you do when you just don’t wanna? When you just want to keep on enjoying the things you enjoy without depriving yourself - without forcing yourself to exercise or anything.

I am not really posting this to get responses from anyone. I know I can’t expect to still have blog friends when I haven’t been one myself. I just felt the need to write down what I feel at this point in time. Just sayin’ is all…

Hi! I’m still here. I know I haven’t been a very good blogger lately. I’m just so busy with my latest web design project. Hopefully when I get it finished I’ll have more time to visit all your wonderful blogs. Maybe I can sneak in a few minutes tonight after the kids are in bed. I do read all your posts (google reader lets me know what you’ve been up to ).

Hey, have you heard about this new feature from www.diet.com? You can send a FREE text message to 34381 (diet1) and get nutritional information for more than 36,000 menu items at more than 1,700 restaurants nationwide practically instantly! Check out this link and then their own link.

I tried it and was surprised when the reply came in not even 10 seconds after I sent the request. I typed in Wendy’s small chili and then McDonald’s burger. As I mentioned, the service from diet.com is free, but you do have to pay your standard text messaging rates to your carrier. I have a package that lets me send 250 texts per month and I never even come close. So, I might play with this and see what all I can find out. What a great tool for when you’re eating out!